FAMILY

Sometimes i really hope i can read my brother's mind so that i can understand what is he thinking. We are so different in terms of personality and character. Things that are important to me are not important to him at all. To me, he treat life like a joke and is not taking anything seriously.

He never fail to disappoint my parents. I know they are so used to him disappointing them that they dont feel anything now. Everytime i believe he changed for the better, he turn worse next. I tried to stand in his shoes and try to understand him but i really cant understand the things he do. Sometimes i really wanna slap him on the face and tell him how i really feel about him. But........................ is that going to work?

I cant talk to anyone about all these problems because it's just too personal. My mom told me not to think about it but i cannot, every night i cant sleep because im so worried for him.

I really hated him in the past for disappointing me and my parents over and over again. I stopped talking to him for 6months, because i dont trust him anymore. Things got worse because my mom thought there was another reason behind me not talking to him. But there is only one reason, i just dont want to give him another chance to disappoint me again, im just so tired of him.

Today we kinda quarrel again.

Please, please dont make me lose hope in you.