Changes. New chapter, new life.

FOREVER.

"i cant tell u what decision to make but must rmb not to give up for the wrong reason cos u will regret later on"

"aiyo dont cry hor. cry too much will old"


:')Thanks for always being there♥

mean people sucks.

Life is pretty awesome because work in USS was realllyyyy good.
Met lots of funny and interesting people there.
The first time in my life i dont want sch to start just so i can work on weekdays there. Apparently this is not possible and i can only work during the weekends which wont be that awesome anymore. Because the people i like usually work on weekdays compared to weekends :(

On the other hand. I get pissed off rather easily recently. But people should really learn to start listening and stop talking without thinking.
I mean, if you ask me a question, I expect you to listen not ignoring me when I'm answering you. If you want to ignore then why bother asking in the first place?
-.- SERIOUSLY?!?!?? If you ignore like 1 or 2 times, okay i can understand, but three times in one day!?!?!?
Dont bother asking me anything anymore. -.-

QTPIE

10-5 SGG & 10-5 SGMB

i love my job.

Started on wed, training was really really dry. The trainer was reading word by word every single page of 'THE BOOK' hahaha, we were all falling asleep together with the trainer. Third day of training we manage to do the test and pass it. ^^ hehe. fourth day of training was basically me doing grouping alone for the first time. Starting was really messy but was really fun afterwards. Miss A came too!! hahaha, i helped to sort them in their queue, without realizing that they are Miss A, until sherri told me.

fifth day which was today, technically ytd since it's alrdy 1234am. Omg, morning was really bad, because i have to follow another trainer and i really dont like her and worse of all i have to read 'THE BOOK' again. ewwww, you know how thick it is? and it reminds me of the lecture notes in school because it's binded too. But because i really wanna sign off today so i have to read it. Hais, was really nervous during manager test, but i guess i did ok~ hehe, managed to sign off successfully!! Start working alone, was really fun but abit nervous at first.

HAHAHA, love my job really alot! get to see so many 10-5.

Hais, wonder why some people can look so pretty and handsome at the same time.

x

what if it never gets better?

im so tired, i cant sleep.

I realized I forgot what each step felt like, the weight of my dreams crunching softly underfoot, and the importance of each moment to simply be.

All this while, I realized I've forgotten what happiness felt like.

Someone please, take the sadness away.

因为太喜欢,所以放不下

Today was really zZzzZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

woke up at 615am :( to prepare before heading out to meet chingz at compass

USS training was okay~ but it was reallyyyyy dry and i really dont like talks, like lectures.

Ended at around 5 plus and head over to another place to take our photo for the pass. Hehehe. Train to orchard to meet up with raymond, weichong and weiling with sherri. Dinner at bk and sat there throughout the night, talking and playing.

HOKAY.

:'(

很累.....................

UP AGAINST THE WALL.

HEHE, this is the car i've been looking for!! This. will be my dream car or suv.

Even thou i dont know what type of car is this. :(

SO CUTE RIGHT? ^^v

MY PROPELLER

He read the same story of how they met, how they fell in love and eventually became a couple to her every single day, just hoping that she will be able to remember their past, even if the memory lasted for only 5 minutes, he's happy. The love that both Ally and Noah have for each other are so strong, it seems to be able to withstand anything and everything.

My Dearest Allie,

I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.

Noah

只能想念你

One song which i have been listening to for the 10th million times and am still not sick of it.

Met chingyi at 4 plus on friday and went to eat manpuku ice cream hehe. Met up with mich and went to meet raymond, dan and weiling at ehub. Apparently, we took the wrong bus and ended up at some ulu place. Who get lost while trying to go to ehub from tampines? Us. Decided to cab down since we were alrdy late. Ate at some chicken rice stall, nom nom. Walk around since our movie starts at 930. Caught crazy stupid love, i like it :) Gave raymond his belated birthday present (sorry!), really hope you will like it.

Walked to raymond's house after the movie and it was pretty scary because it was really dark alrdy. Sleepover was pretty much just sleeping for me, because i was really tired. Hahahaha, but i was still listening to what the girls were talking. Woke up quite early and had breakfast his mom bought for us, realllyyyyy appreciate it. ^^

Went to dte to meet the rest and bought the food for the bbq. Really nice seeing them, i dont know how to describe how i felt, it just feels really good, really nice seeing their faces and talking to them. Celebrated birthday girl twinkle yiinshin's birthday too ^^ gave her the little gift we bought for her. Hope you'll like it! ^^

The night was when everything came now.

I'm really sorry to everyone involved. Im really very very sorry.

I'm sorry.

Today saw me 'nuaing' the whole day at home. Shiok life. Plus i woke up at abt 2plus.

Oh ya, few days ago i had this super huge ulcer on my lips, it was so painful. :( So the previous night i decided to buy this watermelon thing, i forgot who told me it's pretty good for ulcer, and applied it, IT WORKS! hehe, recover within two days ^^v (Y)

SECRET DOOR.

HIEHIE ^^

Today was basically meeting up day with the awesome girls. Talked about everything that happened in each of our life. It's pretty good catching up since the last time we met was reallyyy long time ago. Managed to get into h&m, was really crazy and bought a 60$ dress and some other stuff. Really love the men's section, the men's wear are really simple and clear cut, looks good on almost everyone.

Monday was the USS interview, have to wake up super early and i overslept. Luckily i managed to reach on time. The interview was pretty alright, hiakhiak might consider doing my internship there. Anw, after the interview we were suppose to return the passes and leave the place however being us, we went around playing all the rides, all. Hahahahahah, took the battlestar galactica and my heart almost drop out, dont know why it seems scarier compared to superman, i think because i wasn't mentally prepared for the ride, super impromptu decision. Took the mummy ride six times hahaha. We saw this mummy warrior or dk what guy, he.was.freaking.goodlooking. Omg, i can look at him whole day and not get sick of it. hehe.

Sunday was alone day until 4pm when i met up with sherri to watch our husband in the movies. HAHAHAHAHA. ok. Supershow 3D was at least up to my expectations, reallyyyy love it because there was a lot of donghae despite the fact that they took out all their solo parts due to copyright issues, i still love it.

Saturday was f1 training. Met up with chingz and raymond and then dan and weiling. Got into padang with mich and jinlin, ah at least im not alone. And the plus point of this job? I GET TO SEE GD, TOP AND SEUNGRI AND LINKIN PARK OMG. ok, at least high chances la. Went to town after that, didnt managed to get into h&m since it was the first day and the queue was really really insane. Settle down at xin wang and the next three hours were spent there talking about everything.

Friday was the last paper, went to have steamboat with the usual people. Was good, because i love meat and soup and steamboat. ^^ (cannot rmb what happened on friday)

You shld know that this is a backwards post right? You know what i mean? Yea i guess so right?

HEHE.

OHYA, USS called me today and i got the job ^^ THANK YOU SHERRI!!

alright. I must say this is a really long post.

x

POTION APPROACHING.

It's just too difficult.

My head hurts so much.

:'( forever.

THE JEWELLER'S HANDS.

Really really nice film.

Dear John,

Two weeks together. That’s all it took.Two weeks for me to fall for you.Now we have one year apart. But that’s all it’ll take.And what’s one year apart, after two weeks like that together?You told me you wanted to make me promises. Promises you’d keep.But I only want one promise from you, during this year we spend apart.Tell me everything.Write it all down, John. Scribble it in a notebook. Type it out. Email it to me. I don’t care. But I want to know everything.That way, we’ll be with each other all the time -- even if we’re not with each other at all. And somehow we’ll get through this. Together.

Always,

Savannah

PRETTY VISITORS.

Posted this before, but only the last paragraph.
I cant put how i felt after reading this article into words, i just...feel it.
Here's the full article.

I was shooting a scene in my new film, No Strings Attached, in which I say to Natalie Portman, "If you miss me ... you can't text, you can't e-mail, you can't post it on my [Facebook] wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me." I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, e-mailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?

It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. "Hello?" Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.

Now we exchange numbers but text instead of calling because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds. Bdoop. "It was NICE meeting u." Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: "He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back?" Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear 2 care, but not 2 much. If all goes well, a date will be arranged.

Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what's it really good for?

There is some argument about who actually invented text messaging, but I think it's safe to say it was a man. Multiple studies have shown that the average man uses about half as many words per day as women, thus text messaging. It eliminates hellos and goodbyes and cuts right to the chase. Now, if that's not male behavior, I don't know what is. It's also great for passing notes. There is something fun about sharing secrets with your date while in the company of others. Think of texting as a modern whisper in your lover's ear.

Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. In some ways, it's no different than sending flowers to the office: You are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn't like to be publicly adored? Just remember that what you post is out there and there's some stuff you can't unsee.

But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There's no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.

We haven't lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a handwritten letter is greater than ever. It's personal and deliberate and means more than an e-mail or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most important, it's flawed. There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It's the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say, "This is me, and I'm interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more important, all that I am not."

-Ashton Kutcher

LIVING IN THE SKY WITH DIAMONDS.

Two of my favorite songs which walked me through my high sch life.

3:05 was the climax, where all the memories came back.

Fond memories which once belongs to both of us, i will never forget.

Ahh, the song is so good, so good..

It had never occurred to me that our lives, which had been so closely interwoven, could unravel with such speed. If I’d known, maybe I’d have kept tighter hold of them and not let unseen tides pull us apart.

SAY IT AGAIN.

"为什么会喜欢他呢? 暗恋人是很辛苦得, 你知道吗?"

"我知道, 可是我没有计划好喜欢上他, 是不知不觉的想念, 不知不觉的希望, 不知不觉的喜欢."

THE LITTLE THINGS GIVE YOU AWAY

Hi all, say hi to my fishy fishy, button. ^^

Cute like me ^^

Birthday: 21 aug 2011

x

OF MOONS, BIRDS AND MONSTERS.

I've always been a huge fan of weddings.

I love weddings, it's just so magical and beautiful.

They always look at the bride when she's walking down the aisle, but i always look at the groom, because that's when you will truly see how happy he is, how happy he is to marry that one girl that he, have been waiting for his whole life.

His smile is genuine.

It's difficult finding someone you love and loves you back at the same time. It's nearly impossible. If you found him or her, cherish them because there wont be a second time.

One day it will be me, one day i will find that one guy who is willing to watch wedding films, bake rainbow cake, walk within the squares and dont find it stupid, with me. Someone who will write me letters, appreciate fishes and find little green man cute.

PIECES OF WHAT.

Raymond's birthday celebration with 2H02

Mr Png's birthday celebration
Sherri's birthday celebration
Chomp chomp with awesome people
Met up with J and F
End of ssm

All the overdued pics which can be found on fb ^^

Today was good.
Toptable lunch with 2h02 (Y)
Decided to head over to sim lim square to exchange my charger alone since i cant find anyone to go with me. Yiinshin, Sherri and shawn heard that im gg alone and they offered to accompany me there! ^^ Reallyyyy appreciate friends like them! Luckily i don't have to go alone if not i will be so lost.

Went over to 15 minutes to chill.

Talked from 5 plus all the way to 10. :)

Really nice just sitting down doing nthing and talk about anything and everything.

Took train home from little india and 2 bian tai uncles kept looking at us. >:(

ewwwwwwwwwwww. dont like it at all. Make me so paranoid and scared :(

one day, just one day, it will be me.

WHAT HAPPENED TO EMOTION?

SSM IS OVER.

do i need to say more?
Operations were pretty alright today.
Learn alot, suffered alot too :(
So gladddddddd everything came to an end today, will miss it thou.

So there we go, I'm completely and utterly in love with you. I could be more cliche and say I don't understand what you've done to me, but truthfully, I know exactly what you've done what you are doing. You're being you. I fallen for you, everything about you draws me in. I feel sick when the time comes where we have to part. I miss you when you're not there and I crave your presence so often. I wish so much that we could be together more often; you're so perfect to me. I could sit for hours, remembering all the different times we've spent together. Every time I'd turn and catch you watching me with the corners of your lips curled, I didn't even know feeling like this was possible. Of course, now i do. I just wonder what you think when you see me. I like you so much, it hurts my head.

LET THE FLAMES BEGIN.

Mixed feelings :(

The pain of the sad feelings kills me bit by bit every single day.

Dont like this kind of roller coaster feelings.

Please be stronger.....................

THE ONLY EXCEPTION

HIEHIE

Tried to recall what happened the past few days, but it was alittle blurry.

Of course i will blog! ^^

HURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. hoho.

Tuesday was national day. started the day singing with 2h02 people. I didnt sing much. was sick, still wondering why did i go in the first place. Still, it was fun listening to them and looking at how they sing. hahahaha.

Left at about 6pm with yiinshin and met up with chingz, dan, weiling and raymond for chompchomp and soya bean. (Y)

Really nice seeing them, even thou i see most of them almost everyday. ^^

Wed was sherri's day. Birthday girl got 3 birthday surprises in 1 day!

1st: Surprise during mrkting class with 2h02
2nd: Surprise at her fav mac with some of the 08 people

3rd: Surprise at T1 rooftop with most of the 08 people

talked for quite awhile at the rooftop. Nice place to hang out but it's a little hot up there.

OH YA. Last friday we had sleep over at dan's house.

Caught 2 movies, haha i was alrdy falling asleep during the first movie, slept through out the second.

Charger for laptop spoil = sadgirl_93isme. Have to go down to sim lim square to repair/exchange it. Haisssssssssssss, have to go down alone and i dont even know how to go. Anyone wanna accompany me? ^^

Meeting the awesome girls this sat. have so much, soooooooooooo muchhhhhh to tell them.

OKIE TAKA! that kinda summarize my entire week, almost. ^^v

Cause, you are the only exception.

WEEKEND WARS.

ssm was manageable.

down with flu, cough and sore throat. :(

Please dont let me have fever....................

相信一切都是值得

就放心去吧
祝你幸福和快乐 自由的飞
有天使在你身旁
就放心走吧
除了记得你灿烂笑容声音以外
只能想念你 想念你 想念你

ME YOU AND MY MEDICATION

really reallyyyyyyy wanna buy a seahorse/goldfish/fighting fish/clown fish
I think i should start packing my room and buy one during the weekends.

Yes, i shall do that ^^v

HOHO.

ytd was sports day for 2h02.

Went to century square for dinner and snow ice. Omg the soupppppppppp~

Played the usual rating and shoot shag marry game.

ah, one of the scariest moments of my life. (haha, no la)

abrupt end, cause i wanna sleep.

x

FUTURE REFLECTIONS FEAT HAPPY 19TH.

HURRR.

ok.

Finished bese test and tto test, finally can rest for awhile before est start again.

Anw, last sat was a surprise celebration for raymond. Hahahahahhaa, was kinda fun. And we took lots and lots and lots of photo with yiinshin's awesome camera. It was all good.

Went to it sch? and ate our kfc there while doing many nonsense stuff and taking funny photos with jinlin. ^^v

After that, the rest left and we decided to go to starbucks. hahahahahahaha, SHO FUNNY. Dan was asking raymond to take all sorts of funny commercial photos, cant stop laughing at the end results.

Then we decided to take group shots, fail fail and fail because i was always cut off. Daniel la, one person take up so much space. hehe. When chingyi finally got this uncle to take the group shot, we realized that he didnt press the button, so no picture was taken. -,-

But in the end we finally got one nice shot. ^^

Happy 19th raymond. :)

Pics below.

x

ok la, not very detailed as promised. But still not bad right? HEHE ^^

WHERE THE LINES OVERLAP

really really wanna blog in detail of what happened on sat.

But i have to study for bese now :(

So, most probably tmr? hehe ^^

anw, thanks shawn for being such an awesome bartender partner today! ^^

I DONT KNOW ABOUT YOU, BUT I CAME TO DANCE

So, i've decided to blog but i shall wait for yiinshin to upload the pics first. ^^

x

it's not really the chocolate that matter so much to me. it's the feeling.

You know it's built up with years of excitement and curiosity

when i first watched the film, it amazed me so much, i want to be part of it.

not to say the books, every single word, every single sentence. you know how i always imagine myself in charlie's place opening that piece of chocolate the excitement he get, i know i will feel like that if just one day i could hold on to that piece of chocolate.

when i first stepped into the store in Australia, i cant put those feelings into words. It was incredible. I bought one of the chocolate and thinking how will it taste like. Years of anticipation, falls on just that piece of chocolate.

coming back to SGP, i kept it in the fridge for some time, because i couldn't bear to eat it. imagine the Adrenaline rush i would get just by opening the wrapper. imagine me pulling out the chocolate and break it into small pieces and put one small piece in my mouth. Well, yea i can only imagine now.

im not trying to blame you or what.

im just trying to let you know that, certain things that are not important to you, like say a chocolate that you ate on purpose to make me angry, may be something really important to me. Yea, it may be silly and stupid, crying and make it big over a piece of chocolate. But that's not just a piece of chocolate to me, that's part of my childhood. All those years of imagining, thinking, dreaming, finally i get to hold on to one of the chocolates in the film. Imagine the happiness i get when i stepped in the store and put it carefully in my luggage and keep it because i couldn't bear to eat it.

Okay, this is looking really stupid, but yes, i cried alot, really alot, over a piece of chocolate.

You dont have to feel bad or buy another one for me. I cried not because i want you to buy the chocolate, i cried because i cant get to feel what i've been imagining ever since i was a kid.

You really dont have to buy it, im serious.

Right, no one will really understand.

NOW THAT WE'RE DONE

Wanna buy a seahorse now.

feel so inferior when im standing beside you

feel so small, like an ant

nvr felt like this for so long, until today

nowhere near me, but i can alrdy feel your presence

despite all that i still love you very much

you are someone very important in my life.

need to stop feeling like that

DREAM BIRTHDAY CAKE.

HALLELUJAH

shall try to do a decent post. hehe ^^

few days back, we went to have lunch at toptable. The food was pretty okayyyyyyy, regret not ordering the salmon thou cause it looked so nice! :(

After lunch, we went to play badminton. Haha, didnt really play much because i suck at it.
*no pictures because im too lazy to upload, go fb and see ^^*

Ermm, had lunch on wed so the next day is Thursday. (tried recalling what happened on Thursday, but really cannot rmb.........................)

Had accounting test today...........................................:( really tried my best in studying, but i dont think i will do well for it. Please let me pass, please. Anw, had to skip marketing and accounting lecture to study accounting, because i was suppose to wake up at 630am to continue my revision, but ended up sleeping till 9am. Dinner was greattttt.

oh ya, ikea with the guys on tuesday. It was pretty good, haha, cause we were playing the rating game and shoot shag marry.

Top table on monday = sadgirl_93isme.
Pray hard nothing bad will happen!

Long enough or not? always say i blog a few sentences only. Now have more than 10 sentences alrdy!

x

SOMEDAY YOU WILL BE LOVED.

I miss doing nothing.

I wanna do things i love.

I wanna be able to live my dreams.

I feel that i joke too much sometimes, that people dont take me seriously when i am really being serious.

THREE CHEERS FOR FIVE YEARS

0845: dental appointment
1100-0100: Marketing Tutorial
0100-0145(?): Lunch at TopTable
0200-0400: Badminton

The rest of the day will be spent on accounting tutorialssssss and marketing project.
Life is pretty awesome minus the test on friday (boo) and all the projects deadline/dateline

Have to go all the way to red hill to collect my everyday minerals ._. (thurs)
i spent wayyyyy too much on cabbing to sch almost twice a week. Always, always oversleeping. sux2beme :(

Just spent 27$ on blogshopping. Spending too much alrdy la! have to save for my crumplerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

x

same shit every time. why is it always me? fuck.

SIX FEET UNDER THE STARS

im a really lousy blogger. haha.

Im listening to all the old, okay not really old, english songs. Brings back all the fond high sch memories.

I really wanna buy an itouch. Can take awesome pictures with cute apps. hehe ^^

Stopped using diana for pretty long, i hope im not so busy so i can walk around and take random shots of pretty things around me.

Have to plan a meetup with the girls, been so long since i last saw them. Maybe this time round we can go to food for thought or bakerzin for good food.

Need to start shopping soon. I need to make a list but basically i only need shorts, films, laptop case, dresses, sprocket rocket. That's about it.

Watched Harry Potter 7 Part 2 today. Feel so emotional thru out the film. Didnt cry as much as i thought i would. :'( Everything ended, harry potter ended. Not gonna have the ninth film anymore, no more waiting and getting amazed at all the magics they do.

Everything is Harry Potter and everything hurts.

Until the very end.

10 years of my life, my entire childhood. I grew up with the hp crew. Today was the final, today was the last, today was the end.

"No story lives unless someone wants to listen. The stories we love best do live in us forever. So whether you come back by page or by the big screen, Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home."

x

because you are worth everything.

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Saw a few of my guy friends talking abt Jayesslee, being the curious me i went to watch their vids. They are really awesome!

Yes, they are twins. Both of them look so prettyyyyy!!!
Oh ya, they are koreans! Born and raised in Sydney, Australia.

DEFINITELY MAYBE

Don't think I can take it,
Wake me when it's over..
She lives so far away,
I wish that it was closer...
I see you everyday,
I'm too scared to go over.
I wonder what she'd say,
I barely even know her...

And how much longer
Will this keep getting stronger?
I wonder what she's doing
When I'm singing myself to sleep...
Cause he's a faker,
So see ya later.
I wonder when you'll realize that she means
A lot more to me...

PETE WENTZ IS THE ONLY REASON WE'RE FAMOUS

Sch starts at 11am, but im in the library now. It's 9am now.
I'm the earliest. :)

okay, my friends are here.

x

LITTLE THINGS IN LIFE.

The power of a hand-written letter is greater than ever. It’s personal and deliberate means more than an email or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most important, it’s flawed There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It’s the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say,

“This is me, and I’m interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I am not.”

- Ashton Kutcher

Planning to head to first day this coming sat alone to shop for vintage pieces, i really love the vintage look now. It's so clean and simple.

School's been good so far. Many many assignments and projects due this week. But it's been fun, with the good company. Really hope to go on a shopping trip to hongkong/taiwan/japan this coming holiday which is after my end sem test. Have to persuade mom to go with me, since i cant go overseas with friends, she shall go with me! ^^

Got back mid sem results, very very happy with it. But im srsly worried for accounting now, because i have no idea how to do almost all the questions. Class test coming up and i have to start revising it now.

Oh ya, i've started operations for my ssm. First week was at sugarloaf, im the counter server for cakes. Second week i'll be the bartender, i think i should choose waiter for third week?

This is by far the longest post i've ever posted since the year started.

x

WAR AT THE ROSES

I'm so sleepy now. I can hardly open my eyes, but i still have to finish up my part for tto and send it to yiinshin tonight. #lifeofapolystudent

I'M SORRY.

I didnt meant to worsen the situation. But i really really dont trust you. Yeah, you can say that im selfish and i admit to that. If you are not that irresponsible, i would have trusted you with it. But i cannot..... i really cannot. #sux2bethebadguy

I realized that i dont blog about what happened during the day or my daily life, i just blog random stuffs that came to my mind at that particular moment. hmmmmm.

Today was a fine day.

saw lots of pictures on tumblr which are most likely taken by film camera.

Super pretty. :)

pretty pictures = happyme ^^. hoho.

the boy with his awesome new hairstyle and hair colour ^^ ♥

Isaac found his muse. hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe.

FAMILY

Sometimes i really hope i can read my brother's mind so that i can understand what is he thinking. We are so different in terms of personality and character. Things that are important to me are not important to him at all. To me, he treat life like a joke and is not taking anything seriously.

He never fail to disappoint my parents. I know they are so used to him disappointing them that they dont feel anything now. Everytime i believe he changed for the better, he turn worse next. I tried to stand in his shoes and try to understand him but i really cant understand the things he do. Sometimes i really wanna slap him on the face and tell him how i really feel about him. But........................ is that going to work?

I cant talk to anyone about all these problems because it's just too personal. My mom told me not to think about it but i cannot, every night i cant sleep because im so worried for him.

I really hated him in the past for disappointing me and my parents over and over again. I stopped talking to him for 6months, because i dont trust him anymore. Things got worse because my mom thought there was another reason behind me not talking to him. But there is only one reason, i just dont want to give him another chance to disappoint me again, im just so tired of him.

Today we kinda quarrel again.

Please, please dont make me lose hope in you.

100 FACTS

#1 Have an English name

#2 Believe aliens exists
#3 Love the smell of boys, clean boys
#4 Believe hogwarts and neverland exists
#5 Like people easily
#6 Love rooftops
#7 Love long hair
#8 Love the smell of nice smelling hair
#9 Love the smell of my house elevator and library
#10 Will never have the guts to confess to the guy i like
#11 Have a secret crush on my cousin when im young
#12 Hate it when people scream or shout
#13 Like guys that wear specs
#14 Like to look at people when they are smoking
#15 Have a love-hate relationship with my brother
#16 Ideal pets are fishes or seahorses
#17 Think bulldogs are the cutest dogs on earth
#18 Really dont like how a chihuahua look
#19 Dont like green peas
#20 Loveeee corn
#21 Get influence easily
#22 Want to be a policeman (hope to)
#23 Love the Chinese language
#24 Love reading books
#25 Love shopping for books more than shopping shopping
#26 Like eating alone and shopping alone
#27 Dont like eating alone when im sick
#28 Think muji and kinokuniya is the best place everrrr
#29 Secretly hope im a korean/jap
#30 Peter Pan is my hero
#31 Am a weird person
#32 Dont throw my personal stuff like pens or bottles outside, i bring it home and throw it in my house bin, because im worried that they will be lonely
#33 Eat the nugget skin off the nugget first before eating the nugget when i order mac nugget meal
#34 I always order the standard meal when im dining in Macdonald- mac nugget
#35 Same to KFC- banito meal
#36 Like to look at pretty girls
#37 Love the color green out of the many colors i like
#38 Like it when boys take the initiative to do stuff
#39 Dont like people to hit my head
#40 Dont like people to mess up my hair
#41 Dont like long fingernails
#42 Like to look at people who play with their hair, idk why it gives my a comfortable feeling (NOT IN A PERVERT WAY!!)
#43 Cry when i have a fever
#45 Have a fetish for long eyelashes and tattooed arms
#46 Love dresses currently
#47 Like cute stationary
#48 Will name my kids Liam and Xian
#49 My room is always messy
#50 Have a pink room
#51 Love Depp’s works
#52 Favorite author are David Mitchell and J.M. Coetzee
#53 Favorite book is disgrace
#54 15 is my lucky number

#55 Have travelling partner named Elly
#56 Bring along my family photo whenever i travel
#57 Take the inside seat on bus
#58 Like children
#59 Dont like it when kids are screaming and crying
#60 Prefer male kids compared to female
#61 Favorite restaurant is dtf
#62 Like boys who are playful and funny (to a certain extent)
#63 Used to create names for all my classmates
#64 Have 4 best friends who i call family
#65 Love black coffee
#66 Not a fan of tea, but like tea
#67 Favorite veggie is crunchy carrots and brocolli
#68 Favorite band are The Cab and Linkin Park
#69 Secondary 1 and 2 were the best years of my life
#70 Made lots of awesome friends from Poly year 1 and 2
#71 Was once a nerd (hahahaha)
#72 Have difficulty expressing myself thru expressions
#73 Not good at comforting, but am an extremely good listener
#74 Will never spill a secret
#75 Like girls who tied all their hair up into a pony tail
#76 Love the feeling when i get my braces tighten
#77 Feels that the word ‘hate’ is too strong
#78 Proud to be a Harry Potter fan
#79 Not a fan of the whole twilight series, love the books thou
#80 Dont like people to compare harry potter to twilight
#81 Think fast, act slow
#82 Always like to write my name and personal particulars last when sitting for a test/exams
#83 Love the smell of freshly iron clothes
#84 Studied in a catholic school for 10 years
#85 Not a good leader
#86 Am a extremely good follower
#87 Love daisy
#88 Love wooden floors and surprises
#89 Love milk
#90 Dont like pearls in my milk tea
#91 Gong cha over koi
#92 Get bored very easily
#93 Tumblr over twitter, twitter over facebook
#94 Like to finish up all the work in one go
#95 Love the subject art
#96 Forgive easily, but never forget
#97 Love wedges
#98 Love the brand crumpler
#99 love long bus trips
#100 Favorite boy, Aiden♥

DIANA

5 more shots before bringing the film to the camera shop ^^
but i think all the pictures will be screwed up, because i set the settings to pinhole -,-

But idk.... this is the first time im using a vintage cam, and it's much more difficult compared to a digital cam. Wannaaaaaa see the shots i took nowwwwwwwwww.

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FLEA FLY FLOW

Went to the expo mega flea few days back. Well, when we first reached there there wasnt much, it was not like a flea flea, but like a pasar malam flea. They sell all sorts of things there. It was the later part where we really start digging for clothes. You have to really dig deep to find awesome clothes, thou they are second hand but they are all so beautiful. Best buy of the day was the maxi dress! ^^ I never thought i would look good in maxis, because im kinda...not tall, but the maxi i bought was just right for me, which makes me a happy girl! ^^

Really wanna bring my diana out to do some street shots, but it will be so troublesome because she's kinda fragile. Wanna take some awesome portrait shots. Feeling the need to buy a sprocket rocket now, saw some example shots and it was amazing.

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MEMORIES

omg, i was such an angsty teenager in my high sch years.
I kind of.... hate life and use the word 'fuck' almost everyday.

I love me now ^^ and the people around me!

Really wanna get new lens for my diana. Most probably a fish eye lens, getting the flash too because it's too cool with all the colored gel package.

Tunglok(?) interview today, was really fast. Hope i get the job!!
I missed the clothes buffet application, kinda bump up about it. But will be gg to the indoor flea with mich tmr. Really into vintage and dresses and cardi now. Hope i'll get a few nice pieces.

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LIFE.

We started off as strangers, to friends and now kinda close friends.

I like how we are now. I think this is one of the best things that happened in my life.

Meeting this group of friends made me realize alot of different things.

I really hope we will stay this close.

The fact that we are all in different class made me sad because we are much closer compared to when we first met.

AUSTRALIA!

Came back from Australia few days ago. I MISS AUSTRALIA SO MUCH!! I wanna go back and live there forever. Okay, maybe 6 months. hahaha. I guess it was because we went there as a class thus all the fun and laughter.

okay.

Day 1: Mystery Mountain

We went to mystery mountain right after we landed. hoho. Had to walk down the steepest slope i've ever walked in my entire life. Almost sprain my leg again, thanks chingyi for holding on to me. ^^ Decorate the boomerang and mine cannot be compare with the others because it look too ugly. Had a chance to feed the horses, sheep and other cutie pie animals, which i have no guts to feed them, lol, #scaredycatX10 But it was fun standing so close to them, snapping photos nonstop. After mystery mountain, we finally get to the hotel and get to have the first dinner in Australia. Free time after dinner! Went out with the girls to walk around and look for ice cream! It was raining that night, and we were all craving for ice cream! hehe, ice cream on a cold day=shiok max. >:)

Day 2: Movie world

Movie world was one of the theme parks we get to go! hahahahah. so funnn!!!! Tried almost all the rides, even the scary ones like batman and superman. Omg until now, i cant believe that i actually took the superman ride it was the scariest ride i've ever take in my whole life. Nonetheless, i had a great time there!

I think we went to hardrock cafe for dinner on the 2nd night, not bad even thou the steak was well-done :( Went to the beach! the water was so clear, so pretty, everything was amazing there! Why cant singapore beach be like that??? :( Went to look for icecream again! haha, i looove baskin robbins! Rum and raisin is the best icecream flavor everrrrrrrrrrrrrr! ^^

ok, shall continue next time!

Photos Credit: @Jocelyn's fb